CHOIR

我不懂音樂, 不會樂器, 也不常聽歌。一個不明音樂的我卻自小喜歡了唱歌。小時候在不明所以的情況下成為 school choir 的一份子。一大班小朋友看著老師的手上下揮舞, 在鋼琴的伴奏下, 看著黑板上完全唔明的英文歌詞...一句一句歌起歌來。每當臨近聖誕節、校興、感恩節時, 大家都會爭取在"小息"短短的15分鐘或放學後加緊practice, 當其他人在足球和籃球球場上玩樂時我就和一班不太相熟的同學仔歌起歌來。每次唱歌總是很珍惜, 聽著琴聲, 看著指揮...每次表現都很興奮。看見台下的聽眾由喧嘩到肅靜到聽到掌聲, 很有滿足感...這份感覺不是唱karaoke可以相比...

這些年來每逢聖誕節, 到大型商場看到一班一班的合唱團現場表演....我總不自覺地停下來看看....

better?

Hope i can have better management on myself, time of living and work....

Loss of passion makes me lazy, makes me slow down, makes my stressful, tire...

I hate myself when the time i make things into mess......i should be more generous to myself but not too hard for myself, right?.........something i cannot control, something unavoidable i have to accept with normal heart.....

How i can be a better son, friend, guy? How i can better to myself?

Reality

In this reality world,

i can silent for heavy workload
i can silent for working alone
i can silent for being treated as transparent
i can silent for misunderstand
i can silent for unfairness

but i can't cheat myself....i can't kill my passion...

Blessing

To all my dear friends and those who love me,

Thank you so much for yours warm blessing to me....it is always a back up and energy for my life....

i love you all

7/3

7/3/2006, stepping in another stage of life...in other people's eyes i didn't have any so call achievement in life till this moment but infact i gain a lot, i learn a lot, i feel a lot. Everthing changing so fast around me, the place i am living/lived, the people aroundpassing by me, the people i am working/work with....the most important is the change of me. I can realize that i am so lucky in this world, thank god that i can have such a fruitful life till this moment.......

This the 7th years i step away from college, i never tell others i have written down some little targets since i came out from college....fortunately some over achieved, some still behind, some are still on track. Year by year, each year i will have different planning and target for myself. It is not any "big target" or "achievement"....but just simple life targets to make myself keep going!

Meeting with friends you'll feel life is such a amazing thing, you never know what you get...may be i should say do what you can do with your best is the best way for you life. In these years i never realized i got so many good friends, such a good family (although many problem before), even those "bad" or bitter life experience didn't beat me down but makes me growth.......

I believe there will be more and more chanllenges coming to me...hope i can do better, best wishes and good luck to all of my dear friends around me.....let's going!

empty mind

Empty me, empty mind...
Always ask myself to get rid of work every night....to empty my mind before sleeping...

reading, radio....tv.....with tire body....dead body.....

zzzzzz.....zzzz.....zz